I do not have forefigures

 My only forefigure has usually been wild animals and the wild nature. In addition sometimes some pets. From humans I have mostly tried to learn skills, get some idea of how I could well live my own life. But mostly all influences from other humans are harmful to me in some ways, make me feel ill, cause a lack of luck, social problems, etc, are mostly disastrous for my life and for my skills and health and happiness. On the other hand my own wisdom of life and my own choices suit typically me very well. I do not have any close social relationships since other people's effects on my life are typically too harmful, especially those of my childhood social environment, for example of my parents and of my brother. (Except that rationality and civiliced values is good to have.) So I just try to get space to live an adult life on my own, without influencies from others. I am wise, so I do not benefit from people leaning on the care professions, etc. I have also unusually good thinking ability. The most forefigure like humans for me are at least nowadays ( Orthodox Christian priests and monks, plus ) the service professionals' workers' union PAM. But most of all I would like to live my own life in my own ways, quite much like is the common sense like view of how to fit into the society in a way that is good for the world too.