About my texts and me as a writer. And about my upbringing's effect on my thinking skills. (My other texts, for example learntalents.blogspot.com , tell more of my choices of values and good ways of doing etc.)
I watched from youtube.com videos of songs of which this year's Finnish eurovision song ought to be vhosen, psrtly to see if someone had used my melodies. There was a singer with very sexual and star like video, and when i pondered of the style, it appeared to be style from fans watching some former hit song of his and feeling strongly about the music. That is quite the opposite to how my own texts have affected my own lufe, which has become dumped down, mainly sleeping, almist all former activities, including music, my dogs, writing, religion and expdrience of the weathers removed, and i do not know why, but it seems to be feedbavk from my texts and weather melodies - is it feedback from thosd who claim to have read but who haven't read my texts at all, or what is it, but it has removed most of my life, mainly sleepi g left.
It is maybe feedback from those who did not understand my texts at all. But then they should have left the texts unread and read instead something suited to them.
Some readers maybe would like to replace reading by sleeping in warmth and eating good food. But why does such replace my lufe? I liked nature, sports, my dogs, music etc much more!
7th of April 2022 I have gotten stuck and stupid from writing my Christmas gnlme skills text learntalents.blogspot.com . It is so long, already 870 entries, that i huess that some readers guess that so can they get to know me and since the texts teach skills maybe also win me, and that is maybe why i am stuck and stupid. But already as a child one noticed that if someone of the pals taught others some skill of theirs, ut was nice only if one were aölowed to do it in one's own ways with common sense and taught wisdom along, instead of detailedly copying. Likewise sometimes one could maybe figure out how to learn such but the main motivation was to lne's own knterests and one's own style. So it does not make sense to clmpete with an author in the thousands of tjings thsught kn the author's texts. Sometimds i wonder if the main effect of writing to the author's lufe comes from people unable to read or who did not ho to school and write essays which were sometimes read by a few others, and where reading this and that would have taught how little feedback is naturaöl for each read text.
26.4.2022 I have lately been stuck writing about the skills of Christmas gnlmes and nothing much else, just reading news and wstching videos, not even ordinary dsily lufe. But i guess it is some feedback from my texts, like a paper with an idea that yhere is a text about Christmas gnomes kn it, for example a curved line like a low hill and straight lines like the rows of a text. Or a curving line on an empty background i guess to symbolize some advice about ways of doing. Yet it is not enough for my daily lufe, but i guess that it is the feedback thst i have gotten.
7.5.2022 Readers' view of the writer is partly what he/she writes about and partly an impression of the writer while just writing, and the latter is much more narrow life than what is natural for the writer to live since it is more like a pictyre of someone correcting spelling errors.
When a writer has written one's text, the reader gets the full message by reading. But if they want some mental connection with the writer via some spiritual ways it often does not work out, since they were lazy at reading and now they want the author to read his/her own text but the author is bored and so reading one's own text produces just some vague impression that yes there was that text but what about it. If someone wants to exchange young readers' views to author's view, that happens by reading. If one tries it via spiritual ways, it is better with person who has not written anything of the subject, or if one wants the view of ghe author, it is just a vague impression that there was some text on the page but for me there was nothing new in it. And if the author has forgotten what he/she onesrlf wrote, it still is too elementary and when compared to lne's own thoughts, gives rise to nothing new, unlike the texts of others.
7.5.2022 I found this video with a man with inflyencies from Marx's book Capital, and another with influencies from people's reactions to Albert Einstein's work.
If someone wonders why isn't there stronger feedback because of their work havibg caused wars, my experience with my own texts is that much of the effect of a text is how one's social relationships, teacher etc refer to those text, how they classify the text and what they say that their influence ought to be without it being caused by the text. I have written about free time subjects but someone has made them comoulsory reading for the not-so-educated in India. Or the thinking course having been replaced by following the advice "something which looks like practical or what is it".
15.5.2022 I found another video of someone called Marx playing piano. The influencies seemed to be from situations around reading, likewise those of Einstein. If the life of tge author gets shrunk to a smaller space because of those influencies, isn't it so that the others had nothing to say, they were without anything extra thry could add or somehow deepen the understanding. So propably they were less kntellugent compared to the author than what their social relationships guessed them to be, and so these must be inflyencies from people of whom their socisl relationships thouhht that they would have something valuable to add to the author's understanding. It is also pissible that the book was referred to by the author's name and so somehow the author got to live one's lufe in the space reserved for tge book and possible wise comments about it. The book was famous, the author as a person not.
4.6.2022 I somehow thought that i should somewhat keep company to my texts' readers and to those who like my melodies but there does not seem to be any such connection. Instead those who were unable to read or listen or play, tend to keep company to the write, as if as an apology, but it does not work out, since as a writer one does not want influencies from the adults without reading ability etc, does not want such influencies from one's texts.
5.6.2022 Much of the feedback is from those who oppose the text and it's skill level. So instead of feedback it is suggestion for changes. And ghe changes are so big that it should not be directed to the same author, but instead it is a wish of such kind of material to be available from new authors. When i was aa child and had good grades kn school, much of art's content had good grounds from that skill level, but if feedback is of much worse quality, does it mean that the utterly less civiliced have been forgotten, not taught civiliced wisdom?
22. kesäkuuta 2022 " Lapsena perheemme luki kukin romaanin Alkumetsä, ja siinä oli kai sitä, miten aiempi pariskunnan kurjoitus, joka oli kai poikuen retkeilyopas, lähetti vaikutteena kummallisia muunnelmia jotenkkn hämärästi aiheeseen liittyvistä kummista teemoista. Olikohan, että koku oli innostunut kurjoituttamaan poikia heti lukukokemuksen jälkeen eikä suinkaan retkeilyn jälkeen. Ylipäätään luulen, että tuollaiset palautteet kurjailijoille ovat muiden projekteja ja kurjailijalle vain tuedoksi mutta ne tulevat jotenkkn väärin, kurjailijan elämän tilalle eivätkä ohimennen luettuna kirjoituksena. Kirjan anti ei tuossa mielessä ole heti luettuna vaan myöhemmin laajemman maailmankuvan osana, paljon pienemmässä roolissa siis. Ja kurjailijalle toivotaan, että hän saisi jatkaa kuehtovaa elämäänsä, ei että se korvattaisiin lukijoidfn näkemyksillä. Jos joku haluaa korvata jotain, niin se on kai lukijan lähipiiri, joka haluaa korvata jotain huonoa paremmalla. "
Ainakin tonttutaitokurjoitukseni on tuonut syömistä ja nukkumista ja ksikki elämä ln jäänyt pois, vain netti jäljellä. Onkohan se lukijan käsitys, että mikä on tonttumaista?
25th of July 2022 The readers who understand a text well, usually read it very quickly as if just passing by it, and may classify it shortly but usually are not interested in discussing it at öenght. Those who have less skills but are motivated, read it slower and may discuss it. Those who read it very slowly or do not ubderstand it, usually lack basic skills that woukd be needed in it, so that maybe they are not what is meant by a reader. So if someone has your text as a hobby, thry prooably aren't up to your own level.
11th of October 2022 If feedback like influencies slow you a lot and try to put you in some quite rigid form, can it be that those are not for you but instead should be as extra information when someone finds you text, so they should be as the style of fonts or lsyout or at the spiritual side as impressions.
My Christmas gnome skills text seems to have the weight of Christmas forcing me to concentrate in the text. Can it be that school has same weight, the weight of a need for holudays.
Some may have your text as a hobby, even pets or mice. That is what one can build upon, since likeminded can communicate in meaningful ways, i.e. new readers with those who have the text as a hobby.
20.3.2023 I had a poodle which as young maybe had puppies with a female wolf. My writing work somehow stopped my life, much like my poodle's way of emphasizing important work. I wonder was it wolf's way of telling of the beauty and value of nature, wolf's position in the eyes of admirers. It ought to have the way of lufe lived undisturbedly, likewise poodles' tendency to run, and my former healthy ways of living. But is that just somebody who is wished to tell one's own view well?
My texts are mostly of a very good quality and manage solve many things that others did not know how to solve. So after reading my texts, others often seem surprisingly much lower quality than what you remember them having been, but if you out that levelbto words on some objective scale, you notica that their level has not changed. It is just that you managed to learn some skills from my texts. Please recommend them also to others.
Years ago I took part in an non-verbal intelligence quotient test, and it said that my IQ (170 on Cattel non-verbal scale where average is 100 and high iq society Mensa entrance demands an iq of 148 or higher) was better than that of 99,8% of the population. I have liked books about oriental philosophy about masterful skill, and weathers, art, religions, etc, so in quite many respects i have a very high skill level compared to the average.
19th of September 2023 I have quite often been marked very high in some hierargy that people with a not-so-good head complain about. I do not know for sure whst such markings are, certainly not always the same. My impression is that often when someone reads my text, he/she during tge first one or two paragrapfs makes some estimate of my skills and quality as a writer and a thinker compared to a few or more texts or eriters which come to his/her mind based on simikarity. Then when he/she reads further, he/she maybe alters the marking somewhat, but after some maybe 20 pages it is just some marking made in the beginnibg of the text, and so he/she starts wondering what marking it is and why so high and why with so little view of my texts, and so people sometimes get angry, especially if the texts of others do not seem as good, which of course makes no sense from mu point of view, why get angry at me from the liw quality of others? I did write teaching material, so what is tge point?
