A picture of me = Kaisa Hannele Tervola, 15th of March 2022
(17.6.2022 To be clear, i have not spoken in public or the like (except kept poodle training as a teen and checked math homework in the university), but i have some old videos of me on my youtube.com video channels khtervola and Kaisa Hannele Tervola. But there is some other person called Hannele Tervola too, maybe several, and they maybe some like publicity. Like i painted a fine aquarel painting but somebody else with the same name was at the local big art exhibition just right afterwards, without such talent itseemed. I wear colourful clothes plus white and brown and sometimes light grey, am somewhat fat nowadsys, studied sciences and theor. philosophy in the university, don't have kid, don't know about nursing professions, am or used to be among the best in the world in objective thinking, don't copy from others, rationality of feelings as strenght, no family, nature oriented & loves healthy ways of living, free time oriented, not cunning, not acting, nearest to lies absentmindedness and avoiding something, have never used any make-up except a couple of times tried lipstick )
21.6.2022 A picture of me from the spring 2022.
6th of July 2022 My social capacity is in some sense very big: I aim at using all the ways of doing and living of all the people and animals i know ( also from media and books but dropping away parts that cause accidents, also passer-bys etc i.e. all that i know to exist or to have existed) all the time, emphasizing what suits me best and whom i associate with or think about.
5.1.2023 I have had for maybe 30 years some social classification as a grand master like person, is it from reading Tao-te-ching, but anyway a social obligation to behave nonaggressively like is demanded from grand masters. It can be also from the style of 80 years olds since i was born 8.8.1971.
22th of June 2024 Midsummer Day
The song "Crying flute" at https://learntalents3.blogspot.com/2024/06/preys-paths.html made me remember my childhood. As I looked to the mirror while thinking of my chilhood family, it was somehow clearly in sight, what they were like to associate with. I tried taking pictures but the effect was much milder and more serene than years ago in my childhood and school age.
My a few months over two years younger brother nicknamed "Tompo" was kind of technical acting enemy like evil, socially manipulating, school oriented but not wise, somehow along with in the traditional Finnish culture but nit folliwing it's values.
My mom nickbamed "Tita" was brutal and extremely science oriented with a poor head, lots of nonsense and great unfairness, very commanding and dominating, kind of disastrous for lufe around but somehow did not appear such in the eyes of others, and so tended to get extra righrs to rule over the lives of others, is it somewhat like a hunter over small animals.
My father was kind of, is it Novosibirsk style, liking practical life including cooking, gardening and summer cottage life, and so gave also to others in the family the possibility to garden etc, at least somewhat, which was refreshing and a relief. But he was very science oriented in a stuck way, emphasizing the need for holustic rationality, but went often badly ashtray in social estimates of whom to support, etc, and seemed too stupid to accept much of new ideas.
The nature around was a relief to me, and I thought of it as a source of wisdom, to which Finnish traditional culture and some music coukd help to find a road to.
Of me nowadays, as an adult, I am now 52 years old and have had poor ways of living for some years, I do not quite know why but it seems to be some occult problem, maybe connected with having written a lot, maybe 10 000 advices or 15 000 pieces of text etc, or something of the kind, but anyway lately there has been much too much knfluencues from others, so my life is jyst stuck. But generally I have had a good objective thinking ability, (understanding the sciences), understanding also philosophy, arts (music, painting, poetry and dance) and wisdom of life. But my skill level isn't up to that of religious professionals of good quality (following civiliced wisdom), instead I am like a person interested in religions, especially Buddhism in connection with a good objective thinking ability of one's own plus own wisdom of lufe, seems to describe my skill level and type, but as such I am somehow of unusually good quality in healthy wisdom of life connected with understanding about fracturelessness etc. Especially I am not of a lying kind or dishonest, but I think that often I have no choice of all matters, so one needs to check my thoughts etc, have an understanding of one's own, and likewise quite often when reading some old text of mine I wonder if it has been replaced by somebody else's text, since I feel with a poor head and the atmosphere isn't familiar and often there comes a feel of a social perspective of some other profession. But at least I have tried writing. If others in the world are not interested in my objective thoughts or my advices for learning high skills, I cannot help that, maybe there never were such common values, safeguarded things, etc.
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10th of July 2024
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