My writing seems to be over

 I have lived in Espoo for 7 months now and mostly been tired, an epidemy preventing much of lufe here. So I have been stupid and there seems to be nothing to write about  and when there is some subject to write about i do not seem to have the writing and thinking skills needed for it. So at least nowadays my writing career is over. I do not know what i could continue to. 

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7th of November 2021   During the last half a year or so here in Espoo i have been sleepy part of the time, but during the last month I have collected some of my bligs to five new books. Two weeks ago I ordered four of them to myself from www.amazon.com but the post still takes two more weeks. I thought it nice to have my own books, but today I came to wonder if such would tempt robber like women to my home, since some do not read so pleasantly the internet but might want to mess with the personal affairs of others. So I came to wonder if fascinating writers never can keep a copy of their own book without being punished away from their own home to some other location which i guess is often the nursing job's patient of the friends of the robbers. I luve next to a street and have some of my blogs in the near area shera of my mobile phone so that those driving by can get them, and sometimes if the atmosphereisn't good it helps if i add the most needed or liked blogs to my local area shsre and then again the atmosphere is good. So i guess that i cannot keep any copy of my own books. Better to give them to some libraries. 

This means that a famous and masterfully skilled person cannot have at one's home ( or the like ) fine looking things and specialitems well taken care of, since those would attract actors who want to pretend to be such a famous person and who would use the items to prove them to be the person they act. Without such items they often can act better in some other place that is their own. Which still can be murders of fans or misusing the reputation of the famous person. But itvdoes not prevent the famous person from having anything own. It just prevents too position oriented items. 

But on the other hand it would be natural to oneself a copy of one's best books, or several and sell them. A person ought to own things typical to oneself, so one could better have a place just for oneself in the world. As a writer it is boring to read one's own text, so I guess that the style the books would be kept would not be so very good. 

2nd of December 2021   I have tried to write good basic skills for life, chosen from a wider number of skills, but lately I have had just an empty head. 

Oh, maybe i can keep the books anyway. I got my gnome skills nook from the post and it was just unused not so interesting pile of paper with black and white pictures. I did not know how to read my own text, so i gave it to the public library, but then i was unhappy, tears in my eyes since i was so used to the gnome skills subject. The library decided after a week that they don't want the book, so i got it back but it wss dirty. But at least now i feel still so used to the subject that i just bladdre the book every now and then. I gave also my English book about the seasons and Finnish about knitting tips to the library and those are so wanted subjects that propably some öibrary would want my book, so i ordered new ones for myself, since after 23 years of writing i feel attached to my texts. I guess that i can keep those in my bookself. 

I notice that i have an empty head and life just sleepy and somewhat worried, if i term myself an author of books. I ought to call myself a writer instead. I also have lost the singing experience of life, maybe because of being classified as a composer. I ought to be classified as a person interested in learning composing, instead. But anyway i have written a lot and for the last few years i haven't had much else in my life, except my dogs which have now already died, the latter over a half a year ago, and after that i have been mostly sleepy. So i do not feel like having much to say. So i feel that my writing career ought to be over. The too slow rythm of life is largely caused by the need to write also to the people in the tropics, but that is already done, so it ought to be possible to continue Finnish life without doing anything much so internationally. 

3rd of December 2021   Sales report says no posted sales except what i bought myself. So i will have three books as memoirs of my writing work, but it does not make sense since i wrote for others, but then i do not need to write books and i do not need to write about gnomes for the wide world, so i do not need to write to the tropics and so i ought to be free to co yinue mt Finnish lufe kn a Finnish way at ladt. Libraries have three copies of my books, so maybe some read them. The majorcresult of my writing works are my blogs. Those have typically had a few thoysand views each, even though i have felt pressure to write as if there had been very much more readers of the blogs. 

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24.4.2022   I have lately been stupid and with an empty sleepy head. So the quslity of my texts isn't so good anymore, and what i write is mostly just additions and extra remarks. So if you want to read my texts, you should start from my earliest texts, especially from the thinking course quickerlearning.blogspot.com .

25.6.2022   My text Skills of Christmas gnomes learntalents.blogspot.com seems to continue endlessly. I have already written it 3 years 9 months and a thousand entries, two books already. It seems to have conquered my whole life as if it were my profession or more. 

10th of July 2022   My writing career seems to be over. I still continue some of my blogs out of habit but the quality is much lower than before, often much too low for blogging. I no longer have anything new to say and my skills have deteriorated it seem under the average of my age, even though i have experience of writing and thinking backing me up. I also feel that much of what i write does not reach the right audience, like just about all my texts are objective teaching material but the feedback is as if from stories without objective content, so i feel thst many adultcreaders have not gone to school, at least not so long as one should to have clmmon sense along when reading. Such also causes thst my texts cannot reach any goal of making people more civiliced and wise, nor of making lufe better in the ling run and safeguarding valuable things kn life and in the world. So i feel that if i am ever gonna write again that is either small additions or with some new skills in upkeeping civiliced wisdom. 

25th of July 2022   After i wrote to my text Skills of Christmas gnomes learntalents.blogspot.com to the psrt 13. about creating a golden era like floyrishing season in a society M1., and how to learn to be like an old times' hero in the modern world M8., i have felt that those satisfied the demand for my texts, since now can readers try on their own. So at least for the time being my writing work no longer seems so much asked for in the wide world. Besides i have lately been too stupid. On the other hand, the Christmas gnome skills text conyinues. 

14th of August 2022   I feel that my long text Skills of Christmas gnomes learntalents.blogspot.com with it's links is now ready and as a book feels to have more weight than me as a person anymore or nowadays, but with it's links it does contain most of my lifetime's work, which was beforehand estimated to be important in the world, but it is quite many thoughts and skills taught on a general level, and that is all.